Showing posts from April, 2023

April 18th

 As the weather changes, I feel myself change as if how hermits shed their skin for a bigger and better shell. I've started to reconcile back with Angela but I'm hating myself for how it created a deeper space between us. It going to take a while to build that trust again but she's worth my time and effort. She asked me what I think love is....some nerd might say some shit in line with chemical reaction in your brain, but I think it's the actions that cause you to react that way. Her voice calms me down, her eyes makes me see, her smile makes my life shine, and her laugh makes me live. Fucking hopeless romantic for sure...Oh God help me.... My work is getting intense, you can tell the peeps who knows their worth is beginning to try hard to make them be a better asset. I'm trying my best to learn more than I know. Best job in the world for sure. Got my deployment gift from Norman today and displayed it in my office, if anything came out positive from Poland, it would

April 17

 Who knows why people lie...? Is it because people care too much on how the other person thinks? Is it because people are immature? Is it because people are a pathological liar? Well, to start this blog I lied to the person I love. I was on a movie night with my girl and lied I went to sleep but went out to see my UC Irvine friend named Sam. It definitely made me realize how coward I was and still wonder why I lied in the first place. Me and Angela is going through a trust issue problem but I hope we figure to solve this issue together. She indicated that she hit up her ex bf to meet up for lunch and how much balls she has to say it to my face. She went on a company trip to Denver and going back to Utah on Tuesday. Idk if we will meet in Coachella, but if she does come to see me, idk if I'll be able to see her the same again. Story will continue...stay tuned for any updates. Also, finally passed my motorcycle test. Question of the day? Where can I find steadiness?

April 2nd Thought

 It's been a WHILEEEE since I've been here. so here is a catch up story on what happened since I made this url. I've reconnect with Angela again and honestly, I'm in love. I've never been this happy to begin with, and I think the reason being is that even through all my flaws and mistakes, she's willing to give me another chance. I'm planning all these future plans and I don't even know if she's thinking the same way I feel about her. ALOT of people might say I'm putting too much effort compared to how much effort she puts in...but right now, all I know is that this is probably the best BET I've made in my life and I've bet on ALOT of stupid DUMB shit in my life (yall know...). This is a 💯. I LOVE HER and I'm willing to bet alot for her. PLEASE, let me know if you wanna BET against me on this. ALSO, its about time. One of my best friend is making plans to go to Miami. I'm honestly super happy he's moving on and finding someth